New life bring new changes

So this past year and some months I been through so much things. You ever heard of the expression throughout every bad situation comes a blessing at the end. Yes I would have to say that brought me true love. Man it feels great loving somebody that loves you back. Sometimes I have to question what did I do to deserve such a wonderful man like him. But sometimes I think I hear a voice inside my head saying question gods work. He work miracles. When I say I love him I'm not talking about he's just here for now. No I'm talking someone I can spend the rest of my life with. Now we have more than just a relationship we are also best friends. I love the feeling I get when I see him, call him or even text I cant go a day without seeing this man. I've never gotten love this before. I would be a fool to mess things up I want to spend the rest of my life with this man. I believe he is my soulmate. He makes me feel beautiful, loved, cherished, he makes me want to become a better person. He taught me so much in this relationship I look at life way differently than I use to. I have matured because of him. I don't ever understand how someone can hurt him at all. Now we did have problems at first but communication is a big part of making a long lasting relationship work. There is nothing we can change or solve when it comes to each other. I can write a book about finding your one true love because I really feel like I have. I don't want anyone but him. I don't think I can find better than him anyways. Nowadays guys think its cool to have multiple women, disrespect them, or just fear of commitment so they rather just play games with your heart. Nope not my man. He is everything a real man should be. Some guys that's even older than him should take notes.Yes I'm rambling about my man because I can do that and I really appreciate him with all of my well being. I want to have kids with this man and marry him in the future I would say next year but I think we both are in the process of getting our lives back on track so were good with just being together. There is not a day that goes by that I don't tell him I love him. See big commitment on my part. We been through jealous people trying to tear us apart. I am the happiest I ever been in my life. Sometimes I get scared because I feel like Hes too good for me and I might mess things up. But anything I say I can put my mind to I will do it. So yes I am going to marry the man of my dreams, and yes we are going to make the whole world mad and jealous. People can't stand for too long seeing you happy especially in your relationship. We don't care though were going to shine. We have god by our side now so anything formed against us shall not prosper. I also, think I'm getting better at compromising in any situation when it comes to us. Yes Ms Barnett sounds catchy when you say it out loud. I been through so much you never know who's really here for you until you go through some struggles and now I know that some family really aint shit. But I thank god for my experiences they make me a much stronger woman. It lets me know that I can conquer anything and move on with a big smile on my face. Yes thank you life for teaching me that lesson. When can you say I'll can past any situation that comes my way is when you know your strong and you have grown as a person. My life is still a working progress there are things that still need accomplishments and I am here to say god don't put you though anything you can't manage. Thanks again god I love you with all my heart. Yes I learn and I am a strong woman now because of you. My biggest fear is letting down the people I love so In a way I still don't know how to fully focus on myself. The things I want to accomplish are the same goals my loved ones want for me. So yeah I cant let myself down. I just want to live comfortable explore the world with my baby and our family. God is that too much too ask for. Let me know I can drop a few things.time is too precious to be holding grudges and being mad at petty small things that can be easily fixed. People give up too easily and that's why we can never be happy. It can be a relationship, a job, a family issue or just life itself. Bad times make you tough and strong. Some people too scared to see the day though knowing it might just bring them shades of happiness. When you throw away the gift that god gave you that's when god say im going to teach you a rough and hard life. Yes forgiveness is a major part of growing but when the hurt cut so deep how can you ever be the same afterwards. I say life bring changes and growth its all apart of life and knowing a child from an adult. You see there is a saying that says life would be dull if everything and everyone were all the same that's why we have black, white , animal, human etc you catch my drift. That's why she should always want a change at some point in your life.